This is a dream that I saw last week.....i felt this dream and it was very nostalgic....so i just wrote it up....i would like to share it with you....every thing written below is an exact copy of events that happened during my dream....
To miss (Someone)
I am at Lekshminivas(our home' in Trivandrum)…I calls her and invites her to my home at kilimanoor…she agrees to come….and she came…she is wearing a churidhar…she looks beautiful…..i received her and took her inside….i don’t know what happened then….i must have introduced her to my parents…she might have joined us for lunch…..
Then suddenly the dream is resumed when its time for her to leave….i am taking her to the gate….we are standing near the post….buses stop there…..we are waiting for bus number 29….i don’t know if this number has any significance in my life …. Its neither my birthdate nor her’s…..her’s is on june or july ….. I should ask her some day….. so that I can call her and wish her happy birthday…. Also if I am in india I can buy her some presents….i always loved to….!
We are talking…..both of us seem very happy….i am flirting with her….also I tell her that last time when I called her on phone her brother took it…..every time her mother takes it and I often talks to her ……it was on 13/09/08 ….so I tell her to give my regards to her mother……she seems to like my company…….my heart is beating so fast that I am filled with love…… she may know it…….she knows….. I haven’t got a chance like this to talk to her…this dream is beautiful…
I like her smile….i like her eyes….she has big round eyes…..i like her hair…..its long and strong…..i think it is light brown in colour…..whenever I see purple or pink flowers she comes to my mind…..whenever I see a romantic movie …..she comes to my mind….whenever I hear a love song…she is there ……whenever I goes to sleep….i prays for her……..
While we were talking some people gather at the bus stop….there is a man with hair…he is fat and brown…..at first I thought he was a woman….he misbehaves to her and I am angry at him….there is a talk…….and the guy sounds to have good contacts…..she is so angry……I am trying to cool her down…but she is off control….she threatens him that she will file a case against him….the guy looks around and asks if anybody is a witness…everyone remain silent…..then a blind person comes and tells her that he is willing to be the witness(Kalabhavan Mani)…..she agrees and thanks the blind guy……I wonder if she has any concern about me……she can ask me to be the witness……..how the hell can a witness be blind like him……………..
wierd…!!! ???
…but this dream is beautiful…because she is there…….
The bus number 29 passes without stopping and everybody is talking about her courage and I looks stupid……….
I think this sentence should be rephraced…..everyone is busy talking about the issue, even she……and the bus passes without stopping that leaves a look on my face that says ….” What the hell is goin on….? Are these people crazy ?“
The dream is resumed without showing what happened after the bus stop incident……we are still walking…..we are talking…..i am not sure what the subject is…?…….but I know one thing….i am going to propose her before she leaves…I am going to tell her that how much I love her… that is a decision……….i am so excited…...
This is a beautiful dream……
On our way we see Yen Chen…….he smiles at me and walk past me without talking…I wonder he is going to give magic lessons…..,maybe his first class…that’s why he is happy………he told me so on 19/09/08 while we were going for lunch after working at infineon…….
We go to a beach….it looks like a beach…..it has a bridge nearby……I wonder where the bridge goes……maybe its not a beach….….but i can see the horizon…..its beautiful ………..it should be evening right now…..i see Donovan and a girl…..i think it’s a girl… walking past me to the bridge……..we say hai to eachother….he goes to center of bridge and takes off his clothes…..no he dint took off his underclothes,….he cant do that,.. there are so many people at the beach…..
I am so astonished when he jumps to the water from that high bridge……….he is swimming…..there is a plane floating on the water….what does that mean?...yes…. a big plane…..i assume it is silk air….when Donovan swims past the plane….it appears to be the size of a car….thats weird……….
Where is she………?
Oh……..she is sitting and talking to some girls and some of my friends………….i went to ask some of the guys at the beach, to teach me swimming………so that I can also jump like Donovan………………I see him ….now he is resting……he looks exhausted….may be drank too much water…..hi hi……………
I didn’t go to learn swimming………..i came back to her……she is not looking at me…something is not right!…somebody told her something about me…I wonder who that could be …and what he or she told her???……and she seems to have believed it…..i talked to her and she gets angry………she is yelling something and that is something I never did or meant………i ask her to trust me……but she is not ready…I also gets angry while she again says that I did something that never happened ….it made me angry……..i tells her with bursting anger….” Don’t ever accuse me of something I have never done ok………..? you have no right to talk like that about my character or personality…..if you don’t want to talk to me …fine……..go home…don’t stay....”
While I was saying that I saw her looking at my face and her eyes bursting with tears…she was crying? ,…..but I could’nt stop me from saying that…I just walked away……. I was heart broken….
We all got into a bus….she is also in the bus…….she is with some of my friends…..i didn’t look back….i was on the second row…..the bus was so crowded…..
Then I thought of her…..what happened to her…why she misunderstood me…..i cant stand such wrong judgements…..there is nothing wrong on my side….let her apologise to me first……then we shall talk again….
Thoughts kept coming into mind………
When I invited her she travelled all this long way to see me… alone….thats because she cared about me…..and what have I done…?..i insulted my guest….. my love….. in front of a croud….
….i was going to propose her this evening…
Instead………?
I made her cry……what an idiot I am………??
How can I make anyone cry..? and a girl ……also my love she was.
What happened to me………? I was not like this………!!
i could have talked calmly later when she cooled down..…I felt terribly wrong…her crying face came to my mind and I couldn’t bear it….my heart was beating like some disaster took place..….i started weeping silently because I was surrounded by friends…when the bus stopped we all got down and I looked for her….but she was not in the bus…... I told my friends that I was going to meet her at her place…..i decided to tell all my feelings for her……..i didn’t know what was going to happen…..i just took a bus to my mother’s place…Kollam..i knew her home…..i wished if she was near me………..because I missed her so much………..
no…...!
I missed her always….!!!
